Are assumptions, lying? Pre-school time!!!
Sep 9, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLGdMqo6kz4

good morning welcome to my channel
happy Monday huh
here it's yes it's Monday but it already
feels like I'm midway through my week
because our week starts off from
everybody else's weeks
it is so nasty here oh my gosh I was not
prepared for this kind of weather I told
mine cuz we had just went through all of
his clothes to go school shopping right
before school started and he had
outgrown like all of his jackets his
sweat pants I mean you name it that kid
has outgrown everything cuz he he's
almost as tall as I am
so he's getting big and I feel horrible
because now he doesn't have any jackets
or sweat pants or anything I'm like
though oh my god my poor baby
because I haven't had a chance to go
with it because I want to get him a
North Face jacket but I haven't had a
chance to go down and pick that up
and so yeah I feel horrible
so he's wearing his dad's to sweat
jacket today he's like it's all right
mom I'll wear it I'm like I'm so sorry
but it's just the weather creeped up on
me like I was not expecting the weather
to be the way it is I actually have my
seat warmer on well we call it butt
warmer turn the but warmer on to gas
crazy crazy I just yesterday was really
nasty here and in fact we actually had a
tornado touchdown not close to my house
but in the rural area and so yeah
was pretty pretty crazy whether I should
say but anyways I hope everybody is
having a great start to your guys's
mornin I don't know what everybody
else's weather is like but here it is
just nasty but I'm okay I am okay with
it and usually when it rains I mean I
have my counseling appointment today so
I can't take my a but usually nine out
of ten I take him during this kind of
weather cuz what person likes to walk
serene surely not my kid
so anyways yes we're on our way to
counseling this morning it's bright
shiny morning no it's really not shiny
it's gloomy I'm ready for a la coffee
anyways
so yesterday I did a community post I I
don't know if everybody can see my
community post or if only certain people
can see my community post I'm not sure
but anyways I did do a community post
just letting everybody know that first
of all I am really sorry to all my
subscribers that are being attacked on
my channel that would never ever ever
ever be my intention to have happen I
appreciate and love all of the support
that I get every single day to every
video that I post and you guys are
faithful subscribers you guys are
faithful supporters
and I value that a hundred percent and I
don't want anybody to ever feel like
they have to leave my channel due to
being attacked or bullied or harassed
you know it just YouTube is getting out
of control when it comes to the bullying
in harassment it really is and I wish
that there was a way to get them to do
something to stop it but clearly right
now it is just not something that
they're equipped for everybody can just
keep reporting the counts that are doing
it but unfortunately there's not a whole
lot that can be done other than
reporting them but that does not take
away the fact that people still don't
like to be bullied or harassed just just
because it's a troll account doesn't
make it okay like I still clearly have
people that write me every single day
when I post you know I'm damned if I do
I'm damned if I don't it doesn't matter
what I say do actions I can try I can
apologize I can change things and it
still clearly will never ever ever be a
good enough
just like when I posted the video about
the purse yesterday and you know I was
high alerted that hey Amy be careful you
know I just don't want to see anybody
get hurt or hurt sorry
driving I'm sitting here thinking
outside the box
drive safely don't want nobody get hurt
you know I didn't want anybody to of
course get in trouble or anything like
that but I didn't know that there was
laws and rules against that type of
stuff honestly I didn't had I known that
I would have never ever ever ever put
myself out there first of all to put my
channel in danger and second of all put
you guys in danger of getting in trouble
or myself
so I immediately took that video down
like immediately took a dump the second
that someone you know caught my
attention so that I could see what was
going on I took that video completely
down and oh why is my heater smell like
that yeah anyways um I took it down
immediately and still still I was
getting messages of you know you're
selfish and why didn't you apologize and
you don't care about your subscribers
because if you cared about your
subscribers you would have sorry you
would have went out of your way to not
post that video and I'm like oh my gosh
like I I said I you know I took it down
for that reason you know what that is
like again like I said I'm damned if I
do I'm damned if I don't it doesn't
matter what I do I never going to be
seen good enough you know and channels
are still of course dragging me for you
know the financial video where people
you know donated money to help my family
you know and it doesn't matter how many
times I explained to everybody that you
know I returned every dime that was
donated to me people chose to read owned
ate their money because they wanted to
wasn't because I sat there and begged
for it it wasn't because I put a sad
story back on about it it was none of
that but yet people will make every
assumption that they can to make a story
line just like now it's now now the
story line is get this you guys now the
story line is that this whole
first thing oh that lady almost hit that
yellow thing good morning can I change
that yeah can I do a large vanilla iced
coffee no that's it you know now then
the news story that is traveling
channels is that this purse company is
actually Ali's online company I had to
laugh when I heard that I was like you
seriously have got to be kidding me
you've got to seriously be kidding me
there it doesn't matter what you do you
will always always always be in the
wrong if people want to see nothing but
they're wrong that's all they're going
to see if somebody wants to see success
then that's what they're going to see
you cannot change the vision of other
people all you can do is do your life
the way that you want to be seen and how
people see it is their choice there's
absolutely nothing in our own lives that
we can do to change the vision of
somebody else seeing us so you know I
was sitting in on alive yesterday and
I'm a silent viewer
I am I go in to lives and sometimes I
don't even write because I just don't
feel like I just want to sit and listen
yep can I get an extra cup of ice
thank you
so anyways as I was saying I'm a silent
viewer and I ain't gonna lie sometimes I
want to watch it sometimes I just want
to sit in on a life and I don't want to
type I don't want to say anything I just
want to sit and be quiet and just listen
to what you know the topic is of that
day well I'm sitting there and I'm
listening to the topic and my name gets
brought up which okay whatever that
that's not an issue my name gets brought
up so it's like okay whatever you know
that's not a shock to me because people
talk about me all the time but they're
sitting there talking about how they
can't stand me they can't stand my looks
they can't stand my voice they can't
stand anything about me
but yet they know everything that's
going on in my life clearly meaning they
watch my videos my channel and it's like
if you don't like me then why are you
watching me if you don't like the person
I am why are you why do you put yourself
through that then if I am that bad of a
person then why would you put yourself
through the the the thing to even sit
through one of my videos like it doesn't
make sense if I don't like somebody or
it's not even that I don't like somebody
but if I don't care for somebody
I have two choices you can either watch
the content that you really don't care
for or you can watch it and enjoy it
which I didn't have a problem sitting
there watching the live like I was just
listening in you could call it nosy if
that's what you want to call it maybe it
was just because I knew I'd be talk of
the talk of the YouTube last night
because of the whole purse situation so
I knew if my name would be brought up
eventually in one of these channels and
clearly was the channel that I knew most
likely I would be talked in and so that
wasn't no part of us surprised in my
department but it's just the fact that
it's like if you don't like the person I
am then don't watch me but to sit there
and watch me and then put me down and
sit there and talk so much crap about me
and then to add in lies like my husband
owns an online company are you are you
kidding me like are you serious that you
really honestly think you think that all
I am is nothing but to no good you know
you guys said there are some of you not
everybody some of you she's such a liar
she's such a liar she's nothing but a
liar what else what am i lied about I
would love to know what have I seriously
lied about I haven't lied about anything
however you some of you think that I
lied when I said that I was moving to
South Dakota because my family and I hit
hard moments
no I'm gonna write because me my family
hit hard time so we decided to try and
make it better somewhere else and move
elsewhere and then realize that that
would just be digging us deeper into a
hole that we don't want to go into
because we don't think that it's gonna
help us anywhere so we decided to stick
around and make things work where we're
at and we you know give back all the
money that was donated to us I explained
the situation
I was upfront and honest and very
translucent very translucent with
everybody cuz again I'm not a thief and
I'm not somebody that would ever take
someone's kindness for granite and you
know I'm still called a liar and I'm
still called this horrible person which
I Know Who I am I know the person and
the value that I am I know that
so that part doesn't bother me that
doesn't bother me at all the part that
really just irks me is all the
assumptions that people come up with and
because it's an assumption that
somebody's come up with they believe
they can live that live that assumption
and not only live it but go and pass
that assumption story around and it's
like what in the world so where I got
off on that I don't know oh I know
because I was talking about the comments
section so because I do have faithful
you know amazing supporters that do
enjoy interacting with me and do enjoy
supporting me but don't like being
attacked every single time they write
one thing on my comment section like
they're not allowed to support me
because one person doesn't support me
then nobody's allowed to support me it's
kind of the attitude that people have
and that's not acceptable and it's not
okay therefore
I decided to go back in set my comment
section to review only so before any
comment gets put up into my comment
section I will review it and if it is
anything remotely harassing bowling
don't even waste your time typing it
because I will not put it up
I don't mind corrective criticism for me
not for my supporters my supporters
don't need to be corrected I can be
corrected and that's fine and I will be
ok with that but I will not allow
somebody to correct one of my supporters
because they're here because they want
to be here they're not here because
they're happening to be here I put
myself out there and I understand that I
asked for criticism sometimes because
that's just part of human nature but
what is not what I've signed up for is
for people to bully me bully others
harass others harass me it's just it's
unacceptable and it's not okay so I
decided to go ahead and not allow my
comments just to be free because you
guys some of you not everybody but some
of you just don't know how to behave you
don't know how to behave so that's that
anyways I've got one minute before a
counseling session starts so I'm going
to close for right now I will come back
on and talk to you guys and let you know
how counseling went have a wonderful
wonderful day and I'll talk to you in a
little bit
[Music]
ABCD get our monkeys up five little
monkeys jumping on the bed one fell off
and bumped it okay what letter is this
no what letter is that no a and this is
a what
Apple Apple hey good job so that's what
we're doing today is letter A Apple hold
on just a second I'm gonna write your
nurses names on it really quick e s are
a here's your's
there's your color date
[Music]
you know that spin child Oh mark doesn't
like a happy face good job okay so what
you're gonna do is take your scissors
careful you're gonna cut around the line
follow the line nope nope that's not how
you hold it like this look keep cutting
follow your lines careful your fingers
careful your fingers glue these papers
on to this little glue remember that a
little good job I'm gonna take your
guyses whatever it is so that they don't
get in the way okay
see look so you do the do the leaf green
can you do the lead-free brown so it
what letter is that a okay what's this
show your friends Apple and then show
them your cutting yeah back it up a
little bit so they can see back it up
back it up no no pull it back a little
bit this way this way come back this way
there now they can see it
what's your piece of art good job okay
we'll put it together and put it away
you tell them what what is that back it
up a little bit
back it up this way yeah there we go
there's your a uh-huh and then let's
show him your art hold on honey I'll
help you in a second they don't want to
get down but this is s Firas art she cut
and glued she did such a good job okay
you guys so yes we did about 45 minutes
of preschool and that contains doing
singing letter recognizing what object
starts with a certain letter and then
I'm also working on them and there
cutting skills to be able to follow
lines and concentrate plus we're
learning safety with scissors so there's
tons of stuff and we're learning gluing
well you don't have anything to glue
sissy so no there's no glue right now
you know like how to properly put down
glue and how much to put down so we're
the fun faces right now a beginning of
preschool so I hope you guys enjoyed
this and enjoyed my morning part of my
talk and I will check in with you guys
later bye bye